Tonight, storms are rolling through, the first real storms we’ve had around here in a while. It’s great to sit in the quiet and listen to the thunder roll on. Makes for a good night of reflection, and it helps me to really think about where I’m at in life and where I’d like to be. That’s what tonight’s post is shaping up to be (in case you’re not at all interested).
In the town I’m living in, it’s easy to be discontent. There are hardly any jobs out here, aside from plant and factory jobs, and there seems to be some dark cloud of religious oppression settled over the entire region. You see it in the way a lot of churches here are ran, and in the way people have settled. Settled for “good enough,” for “at least I don’t do that,” and for “well, I said that prayer that one time.” And that’s interesting, considering the Christian college sitting right outside downtown.
I can feel myself falling into that same trap. The easy way out is for me to blame it on the town I’m in, but I think that’s a cheap shot. The real reason is that I’m starting to give up on a lot of things. On being a worship pastor, on being freed from sin areas in my life, and on realizing my own potential. I guess I’ve just lost my grip on the person I wanted to become, on the things that, at one time, made me come alive. Can you relate?
Well, I’ve recently been given the biggest gift of grace I’ve ever received in my life, apart from salvation. And, if you know me, you know that’s saying a lot. She’s an unbelievable person, but we’ll save that for another post :) The point is, she’s helping me to remember who it is I wanted to be at one time, and she doesn’t even realize it.
So here’s to not settling, to waking up every morning with excitement in my heart for the things of God and to living a life of meaning, purpose, and passion. It’s time to reclaim the direction God has for me and start bringing life to His people, whatever that may look like for me.
“Father, thank you for your unending grace in my life. Help me focus on what is positive instead of bitterly clinging to what is negative. Help me overcome sin areas in my life and forgive those who have wronged me. Help me remember how incredible life can be if I just give it a chance, and help me treat the people around me with the kind of honor, respect, and integrity that honors You.”