Chaos and Looking in the Mirror

I have had an interesting few days, and they have proven themselves to be very, very trying. I’ve headed to Pennsylvania on a spur of the moment invite, found out that I was accepted into an internship with Shane & Shane along with 20 other students, and worked with kids from a devastated community that have told me they hated one day but jumped on my back every 4 minutes the next. Throughout the last week I have been forced to examine myself and pull out some of those nasty, dark motives and leave them exposed, left out for my own purposes of discovery and revelation. I realized that I get my feelings hurt very easily, that stress forces me to internalize everything, and that insecurity gives me a loose tongue. Some people make me feel really insecure, and sometimes when expectations don’t meet reality I become bitter and cynical, taking every opportunity to gossip and slander those who I feel have wronged me. I have also been made aware of just how extremely immature I am in the way I react to situations, the way I joke with people, and the things that come out of my mouth. May I strive to be a person full of the Spirit and may I be a person who brings unity instead of division to the Body of Christ!

So, after all of this self-discovery, I am tired and ready to start a new week of day camp at Alequippa, PA. A 14 year old boy was shot and killed in a gang related incident 2 or 3 blocks from where I am staying and the murderer was arrested in the projects directly across the street from where I am working, so this will prove itself to be an interesting week. I will be working on a garden project wednesday and visiting one of the Great Lakes on Thursday, so i am VERY excited about that. I should be home Friday, when I will start getting things ready to move off to Texas and (hopefully) start celebrating my acceptance!